Being Azury

My youngest sister
turns 18 today.. not so young anymore. Hard to believe bcos she still looks and behaves like a school
girl! For her birthday present, she specifically requested for a pair of
tortoise (what??) and she already named them even before we agree buying it for
her. The female tortoise was named April, obviously after the month of her
birthday, and the male was named Forrest; so that she can cheer ‘Run Forrest run!’ every
now and then. One funny girl, slightly undeveloped mentally.. ngehehe ;p 

Aisya dearest, wish you have a happy and smashing birthday! And hopefully April, Forrest and siblings (we bought two pairs just now, wonder what she’s gonna name em?) won’t be growing into a giant! Love you sis!!

My
grandfather passed away last Friday morning at his house in Temerloh, Pahang at
the age of 80 years old. Cause of death was described as sakit tua. My grandma
said he passed away peacefully in his sleep. Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat, Al-Fatihah.

Last week I
met up Dania’s teacher to ask about Dania’s performance at school. She said
overall Dania was doing well. She’s a bright girl and always got good grades. Although
a bit shy, Dania mixes well with her friends. But one thing the teacher highlighted
that worries me was her lack of focus. For example, I noticed she didn’t
complete a few pages in her workbook and her teacher said that’s because Dania was
either busy talking to her friends or doing other things. She easily got
distracted and her teacher had to repeatedly remind her to complete her works.
Well, I’m not surprise really because that’s my Dania I knew. She loves to take
her own sweet time… relax wa cakap lu :p

This
morning, as usual I have to ask her to speed up brushing her teeth, getting
dressed up, get her school bag ready, etc. Bila pakaikan dia seluar, dia masuk
kaki sebelah, mata dia tengok tv, kena kata “Dania pakai seluar” dua-tiga kali baru
la angkat sebelah lagi kaki. Kalau tak tengok tv pun she’s either busy talking
or doing her cute dancing or buat lawak :p Tapi bila dah banyak kali sangat
cakap “Dania, cepat sket” over and over again, rase agak tension la jugak. So I
decided I had to do something so I said “Dania, kita tak boleh la slow sangat.
Kalau slow susah sebab nanti kita jadi orang paling last, paling lambat.
Teacher kakak pun kata kakak selalu lambat buat kerja dalam kelas, selalu tak
siap”. She
replied back “Memang la kakak lambat, sebab haikal tu suka sangat cakap dengan
kakak, kawan2 kakak semua suka cakap dengan kakak”. Then I said “Tapi kawan2
kakak semua siap kerja, kakak sorang je tak siap kan?” She slowly nodded her head. “Kalau
macam tu bagitau kawan kakak kena siapkan kerja, nak cakap tunggu lepas habis kerja,
lepas tu jangan buat kerja lambat2. Mama sayang kakak, mama nak kakak jadi
bagus. Kakak nak jadi bagus kan?"

Dania was not giving any respond at first,
probably trying to digest what I just told her. After a while she said yes but
tears started flowing down her cheeks. Ya Allah sedih gile, rasa macam mak tiri
je. Felt guilty hurting my own daughter’s feeling but mommy just had to speak
up dear. Hopefully Dania got my message. I don’t expect her to improve immediately but
at least she knew now what I expect of her. Rasa macam tak percaya cakap dengan
budak 5 tahun but believe me, Dania is far more matured than her age. I know
she’s just a little girl but if I can help her improve herself, why not kan?

I love my
Dania.

I
realized that in this few months, my skin gets really oily especially around
the t-zone. Rasa kalau kumpul2 boleh buat goreng ikan kot.. hehe yucky! At
first I thought maybe it was caused by the facial cleanser, so I tried a new
facial soap brand Natasya. Don’t know why I bought this brand, probably because
of the ‘nano-technology’ the brand claimed using. Bunyi high tech gitu tapi
hampeh, my face got worse and jerawat pasir started berkerumun on my forehead.
Switched back to my old cleanser. Next in the line of my experiment was
upgrading my facial moisturizer from NV to Dermalogica. Cost quite a fortune
but the good news was the pimples started to subside.  However, I was not
spared from the bad news because after a week, the oil started piling up again..
huhu.. sungguh buruk. Ok now, since facial cleanser and moisturizer were ruled
out of the list, I just have to come out with a new theory. So I’ve done some
thinking and i rasa…maybe la  kan… it was caused by me sitting betul2 bawah aircond unit kat ofis ni. After more
than a year being directly exposed to the aircond I think it’s possible that my
skin becomes dehydrated, kulit jadi sangat kering so sebum works harder to
moisturize the skin and got overworked lalu berminyaklah muka. It does make
sense doesn’t it? (But for verification purpose; can’t u please confirm whether
it’s true that dry skin makes it more oily? I got this info from the beautician
at the salon). So now people, what do u think i should do? Does it mean that I
have to moisturize more or should I change my moisturizer again or it is has
nothing to do with moisturising? I’m at my wit end. To all beauty gurus out
there who are reading this, please.. i need ur advice! But please don’t suggest I move my
desk because it’s just impractical … and embarrassing if my colleagues find out
the reason behind it :p 

Happy 28th birthday to Siti Buntat and 18th (ke 19th?) to dearest Anna. May all your wishes come true, and God bless!

It’s 4.27am and I can’t sleep. Well, can’t get back to sleep actually because Dania woke me up just now requested for milo and when I offered her plain water she got pissed off. So kena la mama bancuhkan air untuk Cik Dania sayang. So since now I’m wide awake, let’s talk about my life today. I woke up yesterday morning feeling dizzy, probably because of the nausea I had the nite before (nope, I’m not pregnant people!) Thinking about what to serve for breakfast but found out that it was already served on the table, thanks to my helper Rahma.( Sorry dear, it should be my turn serving breakfast on weekends but I just couldn’t help it today). Around 10am mom called from Temerloh asking me to get to her house because some anti termite people is coming for the scheduled treatment. Dania insist to follow and when we were there, she kept trailing me around because she was so afraid of the indian strangers in grandma’s house, at one point she screamed like mad when I got out of her sight. Hehe tu la nak ikut sangat sape suruh ;p When the guys left we went to the loo and while Dania’s on the bowl she suddenly said "Dania sayang sangat kat mama, mama sayang tak kat Dania?" Aduh, cair hatiku! She then asked how much I love her and my answer was "Hanya tuhan saja yang tahu berapa banyak mama sayang Dania". Don’t know whether she understood or not but she just smiled My heart still melts now…

Ok sambung cerita. When we arrived home my dizziness got worse, probably caused by the smell of the racun anai2. But since I’ve promised earlier to my schoolmate to donate some clothes today (he will pass it on to orphanage) kena la jugak bukak kotak2 and almari, sort out old clothes. Petang baru siap, bertimbun2 rupanya! No wonder our drawer was so stuffed sampai nak tutup pun kena hentak2 sket but still I never feel like we have enough to wear ;p Oh, and we also donated some children toys and buai baby (we had three sets, macam nursery!). When everything was done I was left feeling good about myself because I know what I gave away is going to make someone’s life better, and also definitely because I finally got rid of the clutters and reclaim back the spaces in my drawer. Bravo azury!! (If only I can pat my own back for the good job done.. ngehehe…)

Ok sambung cerita lagi, walaupun mata dah mula mengantuk. For lunch today, I cooked sup ayam and ikan kembong goreng sambal. Nafis makan banyak sebab banyak sup boleh hirup2. And Dania as usual memang makan byk la, sampai kena pesan makan tak boleh tambah sebab nasi dah bubuh banyak. Macam ibu tiri bunyinye.. isk! Then around 5pm Shah minta tolong marinate his lamb tenderloins in the freezer tapi tak dapat buat sebab dah penat gile masa tu. (Sorry sayang, I promise I’ll do it tomorrow). After maghrib we load all the clothes in the car and head off to setiawangsa to meet my friend, only to find that he was not home yet and was trapped in a traffic jam somewhere. Hungry like hell so we decided to try a johor restaurant recommended by my boss. We arrived at Mak Tim Sajian Warisan Johor and were shocked to see people lining up to get seat. Thrilled by the menu, we ordered soto nasi, mee rebus baidali, nasi beriyani gam ayam & tauhu bakar. Unfortunately tauhu bakar habis so ganti otak2. And unfortunately again ayam beriyani habis so ganti ayam masak merah. But despite the series of unfortunate events we left the place smiling because Shah really loved his soto, my mee rebus was super duper excellent and Dania & Nafis loved their nasi beriyani, although we felt like nasi tu tak berapa original johorian beriyani gamnye. Nevertheless, big burp! Alhamdulillah.

My schoolmate came over to the restaurant to collect the donated stuffs. Good to see him after few years, even though I don’t remember talking to him at school. But for good cause, I will support anybody for it. So there goes, my life on 5th April. Quite meaningful and exciting.. so can’t wait for tomorrow to come. Ok peeps, got to catch some beauty sleep now. Nite! Err.. or morning, whatever

Good day mate! If u r one of my fans who frequently browsing my blog for updates (hohoho!), sorry if I disappointed u. Honestly, there were few posts that I’ve drafted and attempted to upload here but somehow it didn’t happen because I thought it wasn’t appropriate to be published worldwide. Some of it were quite nasty and might hurt a few souls because I wrote it while I’m mad and emotional.. isk! Trust me, you wouldn’t want to read it too. However, I will try my best to keep this blog updated. Who knows, probably one day Dania & Nafis will be reading this too and that’s a good reason for me to keep on blogging…